im starting to be relient on stupid shit and wiether or not anyone cares i dont and i probably wont. i ruined the only thing that could ever make since for my stupid poor choices. i miss you more than ever and i need you more than ever but its too late now and i shouldnt even try. i miss everything about you. your touch your smile your smell my heart drops when i think of how much i fucked up i cant change anything and hopefully the meaning it happens for a reason is true becuase i cant think of one reason this should have happened your always right when you tell me things like why didnt i care than and how hurt you are because im a huge fuck up. I gave up too easily but i swear i couldnt do it again i know i said this before but its true no one will ever have me the way you do. you are my first true loveee your name is forever on me. please one day just take me back because i need you so much so fucking much and it hurts so bad that your not willing to try things one more time ): this is all my fault i know im taking it how it is. ive never known the hurt the vulnerabilty like i do with you. im begging and praying and wishing and needinggg even the idea of this again. tlb4ever.